I found my old blogs and compiling it here now. Here's the old old site.
"Tough
moments don't last, tough people do."
Since i heard this from one of my new
and good friends, Lloyd Luna, during one of his talks, I'm always convincing
myself that i'm keeping it in my nut. haha.
Yesterday was a wonderful day. i was so
excited to submit all my final OJT Requirements, meet Budz for the concept
forthe alumni concert of Himig Kalinangan, and finally, get my TOGA!
Wheew. I'm now feeling the excitement
of having a degree! I'm trying to get busy, trying to finish all the school
requirements for graduation to forget about missing 'home' and not feeling the
fulfillment of graduation. Hay...
I've waited so long for this, but I'm
feeling down and neglected right now. I seem to be forgotten.=(
Mom and Dad are not calling, no one
seems to appreciae and be happy seeing me with my Graduation Cap & Gown..except
for Ate Malou, our helper, who said "Wow. Gagraduate na siya!" when I
arrived home (The situation became more gloomy when Ailette told me about her Mom's excitement
when she saw her toga. hehe. I envy her, I know she's home.)
I feel neglected at home (I'm living
with my tita, tito, and cousin right now because my parents and sister are in
Quezon). Or maybe, I'm not just not used to live in an environment like this,
busy...
...or maybe I just miss home. Because
now, I'm up to something I long for...and they're not by my side right now.
Hindi lang siguro ako sanay... hay... I miss those times when my bestfriend,
Mom, will tease me about graduation, Dad will force me to present to him my plans after
graduation, and Labs (short for Kalabaw), my sis, will always compete with me but in
the end when i feel down, will cheer me up and whisper (for Dad not to notice
her because he forbid us to say "Tanga" at home because he said it
connotes disrespect and insults one's intellect) "Para kang tanga Tol.
bakit ka nalulungkot?" Hay..I miss home. The place where I can find
myself, see my goals and dreams in a clear view, and be proud of who I am.
I wept when I reached my room feeling
that no one is excited for MY DAY. Until now I have my eyes swollen because 'til
this afternoon, I'm projecting my sadness to several things.
I really miss home. Hay...
College is tough. But I assure you that
you'll not or you didn't notice it because of being focused to your goal...to
your dream and self-fulfillment.
The
process may not seem so tough because we might be so busy believing that
everything is possible...every dream is reachable. There were several tough
moments, but we didn't feel them longer because the process kept us unnoticed
in molding our toughness. Then we're tough. hehe.
Like what my favorite song says
"I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly, I'll do what it takes til
I touch the sky..." hmmm...I'll always breakaway.
With all the vices, parties, redhorse, and malls in our time, I would like to congratulate all the Graduates
of 2007!
I adulate your toughness and your
eagerness to chase the dream that quietly sits on your mind and heart.
Congratulations for striving to know your limits and to your willingness to
learn and unlearn life's realities! I hope that the memories during the process
will always remind us of our toughness and of our wonderful quest for knowledge
and self-fulfillment. Continue nurturing relationships because these are the
reasons of our success.
To my home and to my second home, my
diploma is for you guys. To all of you who became part of the process, thank
you so much. Nothing
could ever replace the happiness seeing my home and my second home happy of
what I've reached and done.
